I WAS AT WORK TODAY

AND HAPPEND TO BE "SURFING"............... THE INTERNET

WHEN I FOUND A PAGE THAT HAD A WAIKIKI CAM

IT WAS COOL

REMINDED ME OF BEING HOME

THE MORE I MISS IT

THE MORE I REALIZE HOW DISTANT I'VE BECOME FROM IT

I WANNA COME HOME

AND SEE MY FAMILY AGAIN

I MISS THEM SO MUCH

I MISS EVERYONE

BUT HEY THIS IS WHAT I WANTED

SO BE IT

SOON I WILL BE BACK FOR GOOD

I'M ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT COMMING HOME

AND SAYING LOOK AT ME MOM

AND DAD ADN EVERYONE I KNEW IN HIGHSCHOOL

I DID IT I MADE IT

BUT SOME NIGHTS I FIND MYSELF

WISHING I WAS HOME

EVEN IF IT DID MEAN

SCRUBBING TOILETS ALL DAY

HMMMMMMMM  INTRESTING

PEACE OUT

WELCOME TO THE WONDERFUL WORLD OF MOLINA

THINGS HAEV BEEN CONFUSING HERE BUT GREAT

AT THE SAME TIME I ENJOY MY "INDEPENDENCE"

BUT I STILL MISS THE SIMPLE LIFE AND WISH SOMETIMES

THAT I WOULD HAVE GIVEN SCHOOL A CHANCE

THE ONE THING THAT I DO LIKE IS THAT

THE MILITARY MADE ME A MORE ORGANIZED PERSON

AND MUCH MORE MOTIVATED ALTHOUGH I'M STILL QUIET

SHY AND AFRAID TO ASK QUESTIONS SOMETIMES

BUT I'M GLAD I JOINED THE MILITARY BECAUSE IT MADE ME

REALIZE I JUST MAY WANT TO GO INTO THE MEDICAL FIELD

I DON'T KNOW ABOUT BEING A DOCTOR BUT I DO KNOW

THAT I WOULD LIKE TO BE A NURSE

A REGISTERD NURSE OF COURSE

IMAGINE HOW MANY PEOPLE WOULD THINK I WAS ......

YOU KNOW..........

I LIKE DRAMA

AND I'M A NURSE

HMMMMMMMM.................

I MIGHT LIKE TO BE A DOCTOR BUT I LIKE THE

JOB OF A NURSE A LITTLE BETTER

ALOT MORE PAITENT CONTACT

WELL WE WILL SEE WHERE THIS TAKES ME

AND IF I END UP JUST DOING THE MILITARY THING UNTIL

I RETIRE THAT'S COOL

WHATEVER WE'LL SEE

ANYWAY JUST DROPPING BY

MY XANGA

PEACE

WELCOME HOME

I'M FINALLY IN THE REAL FLEET

I'M WORKING WITH MARINE RECRUITS

I THOUGHT I SAW PRIVATE PILE

IN THE MEDICAL CLINIC TODAY

I WANTED TO TELL HIM

HOW MUCH HE WAS LOVED

AND THAT THE DOC WOULD BE THERE FOR HIM

AND AS I THOUGHT ABOUT THIS I LAUGHED

AND THOUGHT

MAN.....I HATED THE DAYS IN BOOT CAMP

A LIFE I WILL NEVER MISS

EVERYBODY IS SO HAPPY

WHY CAN'T I DANCE

THERE'S MUSIC AND FOOD

WHY CAN'T I ENJOY THE THINGS IN LIFE

I AM YOUNG

BUT I FEEL AS IF I AM A 38 YEAR OLD MAN

TRAPPED IN A YOUNGER MAN'S BODY

AND I'M SO GLAD I DON'T HAVE TO SHAVE SO MUCH

BECAUSE GOD IT REALLY IS A PAIN TO SHAVE WHEN YOUR

ON THE RUN

NEVER SEVERE A NERVE IN YOUR NECK

OR YOU WON'T EVER FEEL PAIN IN THAT AREA OF YOUR

BODY AGAIN

AND IF YOU CAN'T FEEL PAIN YOU WON'T KNOW

SOMEONE IS HURTING YOU

AND SLOWLY YOU WILL SHAVE YOURSELF

TO DEATH

I FEEL AS IF I'VE BECOME THE DEAD NERVE OF SOCIETY

SO MANY PEOPLE AROUND ME GETTING HURT BUT

I'VE BECOME SO USE TO IT

I JUST DON'T SEEM TO FUNCTION LIKE I USE TO

I WILL GRADUATE SOON FROM THE SCHOOL OF MEDICINE

I'VE BEEN ATTENDING

AND SOON WILL BEGIN WORK IN SOUTH CAROLINA

I WISH I COULD LEAVE CHICAGO AND GO BACK TO THE

ISLAND IN THE MIDDLE OF THE OCEAN

WHERE I BELONG

BUT I HAVE TO GO TO AN ISLAND FAR FROM THE STONE

OF WHICH I CALL MY ROOTS

IS IT POSSIBLE FOR A STONE TO HAVE ROOTS

WELL IF YOU CAN KILL YOURSELF BY SHAVING TOO

HARD

WHAT DO YOU THINK ?

I LOVE YOU ALL

BUT THE GREATEST LOVE IS LEARNING TO LOVE YOURSELF

IN SPITE OF THOSE AROUND YOU

MAHALO